I Don’t Wanna

I mentioned in my last post that the internet has felt like a harsh place to be lately. I wish I could say I could simply turn my back on the world wide web and retreat into the peacefulness of my own life, but alas, that is not the case. Because you see, life has been somewhat harsh lately, too.

I’ve dealt with a barrage of hatefulness from my job in the last couple of weeks…from face-to-face interactions where people have hurled such insults that I feared I needed to duck:

To the kind of telephone conversations that make me want to plug my ears:

After eight hours of this sort of behavior, I wind up feeling exhausted, underpaid, under-appreciated, and feeling like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. Or, more appropriately, the weight of the everybody else’s problems on my shoulders.

Emotionally battered and bruised, I tend to shy away from life. I wake up in the mornings in an “I don’t wanna” mood. “I don’t wanna work. I don’t wanna answer the phone. I don’t wanna send late notices. I don’t wanna call her back. I just don’t wanna.”

The don’t wanna’s tend to bleed into my personal life, as well. “I don’t wanna do laundry. I don’t wanna cook dinner. I don’t wanna go anywhere today. I don’t wanna write a blog. I don’t wanna check my email. I just don’t wanna.”

The only thing I’ve wanted to do lately is close my eyes and pretend I’m somewhere else.

…to be continued…
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4 thoughts on “I Don’t Wanna

  1. Laverne Smith

    First of all how could anybody think of using nasty words with anyone that is as stinkin cute as you. It is hard to not let mean nasty peoples feelings and reactions bother you. We are only human! but I childishly feel like telling you to tell them “I’m rubber youre glue what ever you say bounces off of me and sticks to you!” and then stick your tongue out at them and run away! It seems to me however that you have plans for those big meanies! I simply can not wait to see what is in store and… I really need to watch Dr. Who. I’ll make it my homework for next week!

  2. Laverne Smith

    …one more thought. Not only are you only human but it’s your job and they are just mad cause your right and they know they are wrong and they don’t want to do what they are told! So nannny nannny boo boo {sticking tongue out} ppplllbbbbbbbbb!

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